I passed! I am now officially an European Media Master of the Arts (EMMA). Well, my tutors have given me the positive advice, so technically, I have not passed just yet. Since our school's Master is provided by the university in Portsmouth, they actually have the final say in the matter. However, according to the tutors, they normally follow the advice of the tutors. So, while I technically didn't pass just yet (I get the final message somewhere next week if everything goes alright), I got the positive advice, which should be pretty much the same thing

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It was quite horrendous though; the days before and during the final examination where hell. Not in terms of preparations (which was pretty bad too), but regarding the NS (Dutch Railways). Damn, these people really had it in for me these few days

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Tuesday evening, I and my team finished up practising our presentations. It was about 7 o'clock when we heard that there were some troubles at the main station of Utrecht (kind of like a central point for the trains and one I have to travel through in order to get home). Some kind of sign malfunctioning, so trains did not leave. So, after hearnig this, we decided to continue working until 10 o'clock. So far, no NS problem had laster for longer than 3-4 hours, and apparantly this malfunctioning started at 5 o'clock. Well, that was until that night, when we found out that even 5 hours after the problem began, it was still there. I got home at 2.15 after midnight, 4 hours and 15 minutes after I left

. For reference sake, normally the trip lasts for about 65 minutes. To make matters worse, these 4 hours and 15 minutes were only because my teammate, who travelled with me, called family to pick us up and bring us home. Without that help, I am sure it would have been about 4 o´clock instead.
So, the next day was my presentation. Due to the miscommunication earlier with Kyushu University, I was the first to present (at 10 o´clock). Unfortunately, since I got home so late, I was unable to get my bike from the protected storage, so I had to go to the station by bus. Normally not a problem, the distance is only 10 minutes by bus. That is, if you do not get the slowest bus driver in the entire world as your bus driver. This guy looked like he was in his late twenties, early thirties at most, but he drove like an 80year old. Seriously, bicycles were keeping up with us... So, at around halfway there, I get out of the bus and sprint towards the station, running through half of Eindhoven (it felt that way anyway). And, by some kind of miracle, I actually made it and was on time for the presentation

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Anyway, if NS does something wrong, they do it thoroughly.
As for me passing; I have to admit I am not that happy about it. Not that I passed, but with what I passed. For some reason, I am not happy with what I made; it is lacking. I kind of figured out the why as well; which may actually have been for the best.
I found out that I am seriously lacking in the ability to criticize myself. I have good self reflection skills, but not when it comes to the things I make. That is one thing I need to work on. The second thing is that I am bad at writing. Fortunately, I have a course that can help me improve on that. The last thing is the most important thing I realized;
I was actually heading in the wrong direction. As a designer, I have always been interested in the interactivity of the medium. For the better part of 8 years, I have also been studying this. However, for the last year, I suddenly went into the narrative direction. Well, more precisely, the last 6 months I went more in the narrative direction. While quite a learning experience, it turns out I have zero to no affinity with the narrative side of media. Which I, unconsciously, have known for like forever. All the things I discussed earlier about what I wanted to make; they have had nothing to do with narrative at all; narrative only formed a layer of polish upon the interactive systems I was aiming to create or design. Which was exactly why I cannot be happy with my latest paper; it was too much about narrative and being immersed in it. I should have been researching a way for designers to use it instead.
So, 2 days after passing, I have actually started writing a new paper

. This time, I am going to design something regarding nonverbal behavior once again. But, instead of finding out how to convey story using gestures (not my thing), I am going to research how I can guide players through environments using nonverbal communication (my thing). The actual communication here is not important, just the effect the nonverbal support can have on the player. With that, I aim to present a list of tools that can help a designer guide the player using characters; much in the way that same designer can use levelelements such as color to guide players.
And now I have got that out of my system, I am going to revel in my mastership

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